life's mean reds.

why does it hurt to do the right thing? emotions in a turmoil; something i want in reach,but that something i know i shouldnt want in the first place. the new year looms, but this emotional debt plagues.

sometimes i feel, life is one big joke.

went to Kennedy space center today and if anything stood out beyond that confusing physics i swore never to touch again after O levels, was some narration i heard during one of the tons of space related presentations there; "As you pass from sunlight into darkness and back again every hour and a half, you become startlingly aware how artificial are thousands of boundaries we've created to separate and define . And for the first time in your life you feel in your gut the precious unity of the Earth and all the living things it supports. — Russell 'Rusty' Schweikart, returning from Apollo 9" in a season borne out of the true essence of love, what better time to ponder on such a thought:) blessed christmas everyone.:)

Love is not merely a feeling. It is a deep unity, maintained by the will, and deliberately strengthened by habit; reinforced by the grace which both partners (or friends i would say) ask,and receive, from God . --Mere Christianity, C.S Lewis

Sweetly Broken-- Jeremy Riddle To the cross I look, to the cross I cling Of it's suffering I do drink Of it's work I do sing For on it my Savior, both bruised and crushed Showed that God is love And God is just Chorus: At the cross You beckon me You draw me gently to my knees, and I am Lost for words, so lost in love, I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered What a priceless gift, undeserved life Have I been given Through Christ crucified You’ve called me out of death You’ve called me into life And I was under Your wrath Now through the cross I’m reconciled In awe of the cross I must confess How wondrous Your redeeming love and How great is Your faithfulness

over thanksgiving break i headed to canada where pam invited yihui and i for the 1040 screening, which was basically a film about church revival in asian countries and how the gospel is being brought to the ends of the world by them. enter jaeson ma. a Californian pastor, brought up in a black church, dressed in black and blings (ok not really big blings but blings nonetheless). He raps out his message to the audience and i find myself squirming in my seat, uncomfortable at what my mind subconsciously labelled as 'charismatic music that wasn't proper worship to God.' the night progressed, jaeson ma's talk blasted into the minds of the audience and the film screened--done. My squirming didnt quite stop, but then the last few scenes in the documentary of thousands of people, ten thousands of people from muslim countries rushing forth to accept Jesus as Lord of their lives stopped me in my tracks. Almost involuntarily, tears welled up in my eyes. There's just something...

observation of the day: the weather turns significantly warmer after a rain event, but the opposite happens after showers of snow. and you would have thought such a phenomenon wasnt possible since they were essentially the same thing! still, the first snowfall has been nothing but exhilarating. Sticking out my tongue as i trudged to classes and looking like a goon was completely worth it as i felt the ice cold sensation melting at the slightest touch. and who else have i to thank but the most creative architect of the world for these little joys in my life:) song of the day: something that we just finished learning today and i really love the lyrics. nothing more apt really, after seeing the beauty of nature, to truly realise that my happiness is found in less of me and more of Him.:)