life's mean reds.

somewhere along the line, im no longer the same person that i was 7 months ago. i cant put my finger to how it's different; maybe because the change's so great it's hard to tell, or perhaps i always had that in me but i never saw. i wish i could sigh and resign to the fact that it's all part of growing up and old, but when i mess things up, the nagging feeling that the shawna of the past would not have done that overwhelms me.

sometimes it's so easy to flow with the music that the lyrics no longer matter. not that you dont care about the latter--it's just that you forget.

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