life's mean reds.

to be always thankful isnt an easy thing. to be content is even harder. to be joyful in all circumstances; that, i still struggle with.

time holds no meaning without events associated with it, but yet when time gives little leeway for hesitation, for pregnant pauses, for unnecessary waiting, it becomes such a precious thing that you clamber to get just that little bit more. just one day and i miss home already. remind me never to go on any buffets with shifu again.she dragged me to one but i ended up eating almost everything whilst she filled her stomach with watermelon juice and coke:/ so singaporean right! (: (to the above two pictures ) my favourite supermart i spend my weekends at . for some strange reason,sitting by the streets was the thing to do.maybe we were all broke. my dad sleeps everywhere and anywhere. off to coles for some retail therapy. ha.

爱一个人不是为了得到相同的对待，而是勇敢的，真心的一一为他。 其他的，不重要。 如果一心只想得到爱， 可能这一辈子就很难开怀地爱。 而这，我倒觉得更可悲。

today i realised that even health surveys that bring the doomsday message that im fat cant stop me from enjoying my meals. says a girl who had breakfast at simply bread, dim sum lunch at taka and velvet cake at food for thought for tea and macs for dinner all in a day.

what is it like to work so hard at keeping something but to no avail,and when you decide to give it up,it comes back to you in almost the next instant? anger?and so you'd treat it with a cold nonchalence and indifference, indignant that you had to suffer before. anger? because you deserved better? or a leap of joy? perhaps it wasnt all in vain? and you treat it with such gentle care, afraid that the moment is lost forever, just in case you hadnt paid enough attention. but to allow one's hopes to soar high, is really just as good as bracing oneself for the time that inevitable crash comes. only perhaps, no one is really ever ready when that time comes.

despite a strange void in my heart, im still really glad to be home (:

Journey It's a long long journey Till I know where I'm supposed to be It's a long long journey And I don't know if I can believe When shadows fall and block my eyes I am lost and know that I must hide It's a long long journey Till I find my way home to you Many days I've spent Drifting on through empty shores Wondering what's my purpose Wondering how to make me strong I know I will falter I know I will cry I know you'll be standing by my side It's a long long journey And I need to be close to you Sometimes it feels no one understands I don't even know why I do the things I do When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul Will you break down these walls and pull me through Cause It's a long long journey Till I feel that I am worth the price You paid for me on calvary Beneath those stormy skies When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes It feels like everything is out to make me lose control It's a long long journey Till I find my way...