life's mean reds.

有好多想说的。但也有很多顾忌。 要在那俩中挣扎的个感觉，一点也不快。

i used to look upon the abstractness of art with frustration, till i came across this quote in my readings today:) "art is not difficult because it wishes to be difficult, rather because it wishes to be art .. [the artist] discovers that in being simple, honest, straight-forward, nothing much happens."

love this picture from andrew king about the real consequences of global warming.hahaha.

from the pursuit of happyness:- it was right then that I started thinking about Thomas Jefferson on the Declaration of Independence and the part about our right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness . And I remember thinking how did he know to put the pursuit part in there? That maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue and maybe we can actually never have it. No matter what. How did he know that? it's so true, yet everyone(or at least i do) fall for it, time and time again. believing that happiness lies in my own hands, pursuing what i deem my happiness should be, gaining glimpses of it whilst in the process of reaching my goal... then only to realise at the end of the road that the void in me hasnt really been satisfied. and of course not. simply because a person will never find his own happiness just by pursuing it, as such an action is self-centered in itself--- and selfishness, let's just say, will never be satisfied. real happiness? well, if it isn&

been listening to aslyn's that's when i love you a lot these days. keeps me going during the late nights, just like how jason mraz's lucky did for me last sem:) absolutely adore the lyrics to the song:- When you have to look away When you dont have much to say Thats when I love you I love you, just that way To hear you stumble when you speak Or see you walk with two left feet Thats when I love you I love you, endlessly And when you're mad cuz you lost a game Forget im waiting in the rain Baby i love you, I love you anyway. Here's my promise made tonight You can count on me for life Thats when i love you, When nothing you do can change my mind. The more I learn, The more I love, The more my heart cant get enough Thats when I love you, When I love you, no matter what. So when you turn to hide your eyes Cause the movie, it made you cry Thats when I love you I love you a little more each time; And when you cant quite match your clothes Or when you laugh at your own jok

it hurt, not only because i got the very opposite from what i was hoping for, but also that each word you uttered was as truthful as a piercing sword. i wished my initial instinct wasnt to create a shield around my heart, letting the words fall away, leaving the most humane part untainted. i wished i hadnt pridefully and rashly allowed the harsh words rebound consequently off the metallic coldness of that shield in the worst possible way; like arrows that seem to have lost all direction. i dont wish that sorry was an easy word to say; it's easy enough,to me at least. i wish rather, that sorry was an easier word to feel.

i promise you this photo hasnt been one bit edited by photoshop.can you believe that such a beautiful sight actually exists? despite the void that is found amidst the chaos and busyness of everyday life, despite the funny feelings that churns in my heart every now and then as i think of 'home' and where it laid the past 20 years, im glad to be back in sydney:) (my new room's still a dumpster! but pictures soon i promise!:))